Another update

I keep telling you that I'm back, and then I just disappear for weeks again, so I won't tell you that today. If I'm back or not - I really have no idea, but it does feel nice to write again.
This summer has totally sucked. Due to my illness I've spent pretty much every day at home, and I guess I could have counted the visits I've had on one hand, not because people didn't want to visit me, but because I was to weak to have visits.  I will try to have one or two visits this week though, I miss my friends and I certainly don't want to lose them.
Other than that - I plan on taking an exam in November this year. I'm not able to attend classes so I'll have to learn it all on my own, but I think it will be all right (hope). I'm taking social studies btw.
This was one messy post, so I think I'll just round up now. Next one will hopefully be better.

~ Sarah ~

Back

I know it's been a while since last time I checked in. I keep telling you that from now on I'll do better, and then it takes weeks before you hear from me again. Last time I was really motivated to do well, to update you and write about things that I like. But then I lost someone who means the world to me. All my energy (and even more) has gone to the wake, the funeral, the memorial and other get together's. I had no idea how I would react. I've been trying to stay strong for my family, but there is only so much I can do to prevent the symptoms. The nights are worst, so the other day my doctor gave me some sleeping pills to get me back on the right track. I won't be using them for long as they can get addicting, but they have given me a couple of hours sleep the past three nights, and the difference in the mornings are huge.

I just wanted to let you know why I've been absent, and from now on I will update the blog when I have something I want to write about. I won't say that I'll update it every day, or even every week, because I have no idea if I'll be able to. But I like having this blog, so I will keep it up. Thank you for all of you who still follow me, soon I will make it worth your while.

~ Sarah ~  

New week - New start

Made a rough plan of my week yesterday and thought I could share it with you. As a spoonie you can't really plan a week, but a least I have some plans and if I'm not able to go trough with everything, then that has to be OK.

Don't know if this is interesting, would like some feedback on that. Think I'll be posting a plan of my treatments and other set plans on Mondays from now on, and than a summary on Sunday, does that sound OK?

~ Sarah ~

SUNday

I woke up in my room which was filled with sunbeams at 8 AM, and looked outside to find a sky so blue you can't help but spend a few seconds just to stare. It was just me and my mom at home, so we made a delicious breakfast, in my case oatmeal with banana slices, and spent the morning out in the sun. One of our neighbors saw us and joined us for some coffee and a little chit chat too, I always love that.
Most of the day I lay on the lounger, reading, listening to music and working on my tan. Of course, I didn't think of using sun protection, so now my face - thankfully only my face - is tomato-red and burning. Great.
After a while I got really tired from all the sun and the heath, so I spent the second half of my day inside watching the Lindsay Lohan documentary show. I really like that girl, so I want her to get back on track.

// Picture from We Heart It //

Now it's time to go to sleep, I'm really tired. Even though this light and warm season makes me better, it's still exhausting to spend too much time in the sun. But one good thing is that I used to be tired after spending all day in the sun when I was healthy as a horse too!


(Not mentioning Fathers Day, as the Norwegian Fathers Day is on November 9th this year. It's not that I forgot my absolutely wonderful, supportive and loving father, just thought you should know that. )

Hope you all had a great Sunday!

~ Sarah ~

Finally, it's time

Boy have I waited long for the World Cup 2014 to start. The excitement before the opening game between Brazil and Croatia was immeasurable. Pretty pleased with that game, except for the referee though.. Thank goodness that Oscar scored the 3-1 goal, or it would be a discussable win.
And who didin't get blown away by the Spain vs Netherlands  match? Wow. Crap. Wow.
Anyways, I hope you all enjoy the World Cup, and if football doesn't interest you; I hope you enjoy that summer has finally arrived as well. Have a great day readers, and note that I intend to update my blog more often from now ♡

// pictures from We Heart It //

Anyone else out there crazy about the World Cup?

~ Sarah ~ 

M.E. awareness day

Today, May 12th, is the international M.E. awareness day. In that occation I want to write a post about my illness and how it impacts me. 

Almost two years ago, I got ill. That was only a infections mononucleousis, but it developed to ME. The past two years have been the worst of my life. I´ve had to give up almost everything that makes me me. I´m no longer a athlete or a student, I´m no longer a employee or a coach, I´m no longer the friend, sister, daughter or person that I want to be. I am no longer full of life. 

Having a invisible illness is tough. Of course, sometimes people can see that you are feeling bad, but if you saw me walking down the street, all you´d see was a normal girl. You wouldn´t be able to see how painfull every step was. You wouldn´t see the constant headache I´ve had for the past two years. You wouldn´t see how much I lenghten to get back to bed. 

About the same time I got ill, I started my freshman year in high school. I was a dedicated 16 year old girl, filled with motivation. The school I went to specialized in elite sports. I was one of the cross country skiiers, and my classmates were football players, dancers, handball players, alpine skiers, freestyle skiers, biathletes etc. That was the perfect place for me - but I didn´t get to attent many days of school before I got ill. I´d felt bad for a while, but suddenly my body said stop and I was no longer able to push it. 

Now I´ve had to put my education on hold. The past year it´s been all about getting though the day. My focus has been on my treatment, but it´s all gambling whether it will work or not, but I have to feel like I am doing something to get better. Of course, I had to quit my spare-time job right away. Sports were out of the question, my favorite thing in the whole world. No more sparetime activities. No more going out with friends. My social life right now is through the internet and visits from my friends at home. That´s not the way a 18 year old girl should spend her time and youth.

"The Perfect Sarah"

A couple of days ago, I wrote down in a mindmap what would make me perfect. When I was done, I looked at it and guess what I saw? If I hadn´t been ill, I would be her - The Perfect Sarah. Here is my criteria for me being "perfect":

❤ The Perfect Sarah is sporty and strong.

❤ The Perfect Sarah has top grades. 

❤ The Perfect Sarah has plans for the future.

❤ The Perfect Sarah is a kind, thoughtful and good friend.

❤ The Perfect Sarah is fun to hang around with.

❤ The Perfect Sarah is confident.

❤ The Perfect Sarah is outgoing.

❤ The Perfect Sarah is healthy. 

"The ill Sarah"

I love the perfect Sarah. But that´s not who I am. I am the ill Sarah now.

✘ The ill Sarah is tired and weak.

✘ The ill Sarah is not able to work hard or at all with school.

✘ The ill Sarah has a uncertain future.

✘ The ill Sarah is too tired to give back to her friends. 

✘ The ill Sarah is boring and never does anything "fun".

✘ The ill Sarah has a poor self-esteem and is insecure.

✘ The ill Sarah is withdrawn from her social life.

✘ The ill Sarah is, well, ill.

To all you out there that doesn´t know how much M.E. impacts a life, look at me. I loved my life, now I hate it. What I feel is the worst, is that I know there are many M.E. sufferers that struggles more than me. I am still able to walk - I don´t need a wheelchair. I can live at home, and rarely spend nights at the hospital. I have the best family and friends that all tries their best to make my days as good as they can be. I still have hope.

The importance of M.E. awareness

More and more people are diagnosed with M.E. Younger and younger people are diagnosed with M.E. Too many meets faces filled with questions if they say they have M.E., and that involves meetings with doctors. The M.E. sufferers needs the world to know more about this illness.

If the awareness of the illness had been better, the life of M.E. sufferers would be too.

★ There would be more interest and funds for research.

★ There would be one less challenge for the M.E. sufferers. Healthy people can only imagine how exhausting it is to explain over and over what the illness is and what it does to you.

★ Doctors would know more about the illness, and less misinformation would be given. 

★ Hopefully, M.E. awareness would lead to a efficient treatment.

We need this. Awareness. Please share this post or in some way the importance of M.E. awareness. I will be forever gratefull. 

#May12BlogBomb

~ Sarah ~

I´m a fighter

Yesterday was a really tough day. I couldn´t sit, I couldn´t stand, I couldn´t eat, I couldn´t drink, all I could do was to squirm in pain under my blanket. My headache was at it´s worst, I nearly threw up because of it. Every muscle and limb ached and I wasn´t able to lie still and get to relax even a bit. I absolutely hate those days, and I am so glad I´m feeling better today.

// Picture from We Heart It //

As many of you know, I am currently staying in a rehabilitation center. I´ve been here for over two weeks now, and was supposed to go home this wednesday, after three weeks. But, since things haven´t really gone my way - the fact that I´m worse now than I was when I got here - my supervisor and I have decided that I will stay here for another two weeks. I soo badly want this to work, and I don´t want to go home feeling like this - both fysically and mentally. I will give this a second chance, and then we´ll see. If it doesn´t work I guess I am not ready for it. But I will continue fighting, I will not quit.

~ Sarah ~

Update from rehab

I know it´s been forever since I´ve posted something, but I´ve been all caught up in things here at rehab. Things are going ok, could have been a lot better. I try to stay positive at all times, but its hard when you feel like things are going in the wrong direction.. I am worse now than I was when I got here, and I´ve been here for two weeks. I thought I was supposed to be better.

The first two days I was a little shocked about how much I thought I was supposed to do, and after two days trying to do it all I was totally exhausted. But then I had a meeting with my contactperson up here, and we developed a plan that we thought I was able to follow. That is the same plan as I still have: maximum 15 minutes of activity a day. But the thing is that going from my room to the cafeteria is activity to me. Eating in a room filled with people is activity. Chatting along with them is exhausting. Dressing before/after my "real" activity is hard. It´s all tough. 

On the bright side, I am able to do soo much more now than two months ago. It is progress, and I so badly don´t want that to be ruined.

So, today my activity was a walk with the group and we did squats and lunges before I had to leave. The rest of the group continued with other basic exercises that we can do at home without any equipment. Other days we´ve been in the gym, doing Tai Chi on the grass watching the sun rise, regular walks, strenght training outside etc. The others have exercises in one of the pools 4-6 times a week, but I´m not allowed to as it takes too much energy to shower and get dressed/undressed twice + swimming. That sucks, but I know it´s right as I tried joining one of the swimming sessions my first day here. 

But, it´s not all bad. In fact, I´ve spent every day positive till yesterday, so if I´d written a post then, it would have sounded a lot different than this. That post would have been smiling itself. 

Other than that, I´ve watched lots of movies and TV-shows on netflix, been drawing a little and nitting a lot. Now I´m excited for tomorrows talk with my contactperson, and see if she have a plan to get me back on the right track. We will also discuss whether I should stay here for another week. I am supposed to go home next wednesday, but maybe I´ll be here longer. 

The other day, me and one of the others here went out in the boat. He rowed and I enjoyed the peace and quiet. I took some pictures for you guys, but other than these I barely take pictures even though this is the most idyllic place ever.

And this is something I drew the other day. Not finished, but I don´t really know what more to do with it.

~ Sarah ~

I need your help and opinion

If you´ve read my blog before, you probably know that I was recently vacationing on Gran Canaria. Well, that wasn´t all I did. The trip was booked for three reasons. Number 1: To get to see something else than my livingroom. Number 2: To see if the climate helped my health. Number 3: To visit a school which I´ve applied to, and am now considering going to this fall. Yes, you read correctly, I´m considering moving to Gran Canaria. That´s why I need your help and opinion, what do you think?

Do I think the climate helped my health on Gran Canaria?

Yes. I absolutely do. The week before we left I was better than I´d been since October, but that doesn´t mean I was well. That means that my headache was reduced, my energylevel was slightly better, I was able to have friends over some nights and I was able to pack my bag all by myself. So, I was much better, but I wasn´t good. The first days on Gran Canaria was a bit tough. The trip was long, 16 hours in total, and of course I was tired after that. The first days I spent many hours in bed, but I was also able to sit outside on our balcony to get fresh air. As the days went by, I recovered more and more from the trip. I started hanging out by the pool and some nights my mother and I even went out for dinner. We came down there on a Saturday, and the next Friday we visited the school. I´ll tell you more about it below. After visiting the school we went out to eat lunch as we were already out in the city. That was a mistake. When we finally got back my headache was a 8 1/2 out of 10, I was nauseated, had lots of musclepain and was ill in general. I slept for three hours, from 3pm to 6pm, but when i woke up I was miraculously much better. My headache had reduced to a 5, I was no longer nauseated and had hardly any musclepain. I was trilled, but took a calm night on the balcony to make sure I wouldn´t ruin the recovery. I went to bed early, and when I woke up the next morning, my headache was hardly a 3 and I was feeling good. I can´t remember me recovering that fast even once since I got ill. Saturday I spent almost the entire day by the pool, at night my mother got us takeaway and I went to bed still feeling good. 

The next week was even better. I was feeling good every day. I took two short walks where one of them was up stairs after stairs (518 steps) to reach a viewpoint. I swam in the pool, I ate out many nights, I went to bed almost without a headache (and I can´t remember last time that happened), and I smiled, laughed and was really enjoying myself. The last day we even took a day-trip to a town nearby, it´s name is Puerto de Mogan and it´s being called Little Venezia because of it´s similar canals linked by bridges. It was beautiful and it was a market there, same type as I visited in Arguineguin the same week(!!), and we walked a lot and we ate out and when we got back to our hotel we had been out for 6 hours, and thats almost a day of school. We went home the next day and that trip was tough, but now I´ve been home for a week and I´ve kept the good shape I had on Gran Canaria! I´ve been able to continue taking short walks, having periods almost without a headache, a minimum of musclepain and, yeah, I´ve been good. Great actually. 

So you must see that I think very positively about Gran Canaria. It really did me well, and I am thinking that since I got that well after two weeks, how will I do after ten months?

The school is a Norwegian private school. I know that I haven´t told you that I am a Norwegian before, but I thought it was time to let you know (plus then I have a excuse for my bad English). 

Well, as I said, the school is a Norwegian private school. It´s located between the popular tourist cities Puerto Rico (where I stayed) and Arguineguin. It´s a tiny school with elementary school, middle school and high school on the same grounds. To be more precise, the kids from elementary school have their playground outside of the high school classrooms. Elementary- and middle school have about 160 pupils in total, and the high school between 70 and 90 pupils. 

I spoke to the school counselor, and he seemes to have a good idea of how to get me trough school. And that is exactly what my goal is, to get trough school. I´ve tried to keep the old me, the girl who only accepted, and only got, good grades, but then I use too much energy and I end up not being able to attend the test which I practised for. I simply get exhausted by the preparations. So, my goal will be not to fail any classes, and thats it. I will study at college, but I will have to choose a college that will accept me, and not get to attend my dream college. 

Some of the other pupils at the school are in some way ill and the climate helps them, and that´s why they attend that school. Others have parents or siblings who gets better because of the climate, and the rest of them only wants a different year or something like that. So it won´t be like going to school in a hospital, most of the pupils will be healthy, just like at any other school. 

The biggest downside of this is; I will have to move out. Not just move out, but basically move to another continent (not really, but hello, it´s almost Africa). Will I be healthy enough to take care of myself  and study? I have no idea. 

This is why I need your help. Do you have any advices or opinions to help me make a decision? Of course it will also be a lot more expensive to move out and attend a private school, but ignore that factor. Not that money isn´t an issue, but I´d rather like your opinions on the rest. I have to decide within Wednesday!

- What do you think? I really need your help and opinion.

~ Sarah ~

Pictures from Gran Canaria

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Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow

I decided to start this post with a quote. Well, not just a quote, but the best quote I´ve read in a long time. Everyone - and I mean everyone - should reflect over what you make of your life, because you are the only one who knows what you truly want and what´s best for you. If you won´t take control over your life, no one else will. There might be someone who will try, but they often have their own motives and they won´t take into account what´s best for you. The person who have the best qualifications and capabilities to control your life, is yourself. Then do it - take control.

There will always be factors that will partly control your life for you, like your responsibilities and your duties. You can´t only fill inn the rest of your time with what you want, you can also choose how to meet your situations. If you go to work with a huge smile on your face, determined to get a lot done and also see if you can get in some flirting with that cute, new colleague, your day will turn out a lot different than if you went to work just to get time passing faster, and avoiding that colleague because "(s)he probably finds you dull and unattractive anyway". 

Being positive and ready to seize the day, everyday, can´t be easy, and I´m not asking you to be that "exemplary" - I am definitely not like that - but think about it, what can you do today to make your day better? What did you do yesterday that made your day worse than it had to be? What can you do today, for tomorrow to look brighter? Three questions. It´s up to you to find the answers.  

"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow" - Albert Einstein

I wish you all a terrific day ❤

~ Sarah ~

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~ Sarah ~




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Home Sweet Home

Yesterday at 5am I finally walked through my own front door and within minutes I'd curled up in my own bed. My sister had cleaned my entire room, changed the sheets and made it supercosy until I got home. That feeling is undescribable. I fell asleep instantly and didn't get up until 2pm, and then I took a quick shower before we went to my Grandpa's birhtdayparty. I don't know if it was the smartest thing to do, me already being tired and all, but it was so nice being with family again, so I guess it was worth it ❤

At the party we ate lots of good food , got to catch up with everyone and later my cousins and I played UNO. I am a very competitive person, and well, let's just say I lost. Big Time. 
When we came home I worked a bit on my blog design, if you have followed me before you can see that it's changed, but I am still not happy about it... I just can't seem to get it right. I want it to be perfect so it might be some changes in the design in the future also.

Now I'm obviousaly writing this post, and earlier I've been unpacking my bags. I'll probably take it a little easy today, but tomorrow I really want to take a short walk. 

I was a little bit hopeful when I made breakfast today... A full portion of oatmeal with homemade rasberry jam and a orange... I ended up throwing away half of the oatmeal and made my dad eat the orange... 

Recipe:

❤ 2 dl oatmeal

❤ 3 dl skimmed milk

❤ half a teaspoon seasalt

Two minutes in the microwave, and voilà

I used jam on top, but you can also use fresh berries or fruit.

Have a great day, loved ones.

~ Sarah ~

Market in Arguineguin

Every Tuesday there is a market in Arguineguin, a town near Puerto Rico, where salesmen all put up tables and little "shops" to sell their products. When I finally woke up this morning, I slept until 11am, my mother had just found out about the market. I´d read about it, but forgotten that this was our last chance to visit it. So I took a quick shower and ate a quick breakfast and within 30 minutes we were in a taxi on our way to Arguineguin.

The market was a lot bigger than i´d expected, and we didn´t even have time to see half of it, as most of the salesmen went home around 1pm. But it was a lot of fun, the salesmen is rather pushy, but its fun to negotiate with them. I bought a Louis Vuitton bag, a pair of Rayban sunglasses and two bikinis. Of course the "Raybans" and the "Louis Vuitton" was fake, but they are both so pretty and since I don´t really care to spend too much money on bags and such, it was perfect for me :) The man actually wanted 120 € for the LV bag at first, but as i´d spoken to other sellers and knew more of what they sold it for, I managed to get it for only 25 €!!! Pretty darn happy about that one. 

Other than that, my mother bought a couple of belts, a purse, and gifts for my brother, sister and father.

When we got back to our hotel we ate lunch and I was still feeling okay. It´s amazing how the climate must affect me, because if i´d done something like this at home two weeks ago, i´d need to go straight to bed once I got home, and i´d fall asleep right away and sleep for two-three hours! But today, I put on my bikini and went out and relaxed by the pool. So satisfied with my day today, it will be amazing to go to bed tonight, feeling like I actually accomplished something. Great feeling. 

My two new bikinis. I got them for 30 €, and its size 38 ( Europe size 36). Love the marine blue one, not yet sure about the other one...

My new "Rayban´s". I really like them, but most of all, I really needed new sunglasses.

And last but not least, my "Louis Vuitton" bag! It´s rather big, perfect for a weekend away. I´ve wanted this since I was 12, so it feels great that it´s finally mine ❤

Hope you all had a great day today also!

~ Sarah ~  

Why me?

A question that often pop up in my mind is "why me?". Why is it me who has to suffer with cfs? I didn´t do anything to deserve it as far as i know.. But who has? Who has done anything to deserve something like this?

Before I got ill, I was the sporty girl in our class. I was the exemplary student, the dutiful daughter, the kind sister, the role model and the popular girl. My life was good. 

I made it to our region elite team in cross country skiing. My pre-season training had been great, I´d never worked that hard before. My fysical tests were great, I´d taken many steps towards the elite. Then I got ill. 

I come from a athletic family. My brother was a elite cross country skier, my mom and dad had been when they were young, and my little sister was up-and-coming. Most of what we did together involved activity. Not that we didn´t watch TV together, or didn´t get to do other things, it´s just that it was the activities we liked. When the family suddenly got a girl who stayed in bed all day, it was hard to handle. I wanted the rest of the family to stay active, and they wanted to, but it wasn´t the same anymore. They could still work out, but not do those types of vacations we used to have, and go on all the "adventures" we went on. 

Even though I´m used to it, it still hurts to see every member of my family go training every single day, while I stay home in bed. 

That was my life. That is what I lost. Sometimes when I´m in a dark place, I think "why couldn´t some of the lazy people take over for me?", but I regret the thought right away. No one deserves this. No one.

Sometimes it helps that I had that past, because everyone knows that this is the last thing I want. Staying home in bed. Watching some TV when I have the energy for it, and sleep the rest. "Why should this happen to you?", "You´re the last person to deserve something like this" etc. I hear it all the time. It´s nice not being suspected of being lazy, but it still doesn´t help. 

I´s hard staying positive every day, but i´m sure it helps. I see a therapist once a week, and the last times we´ve talked about who I am. Who am I without sports? I haven´t figured it out yet, but I think I´m getting closer. I might have lost all of that, but there´s still things I have. 

I have a wonderful family who supports me and tries to make my days better.

I have fantastic friends who cares about me.

I am still able to support my friends, give advices and listen to all the fun things they do.

I am still motivated for school, even though I had to quit for now.

I still care about sports. I cant still watch it on TV, even though I can´t compete myself.

I have money on my bank account because I don´t spend any.

I still like to read.

I still like photografy. That is a nice hobby when I have energy for it.

I am still able to be a good sister.

I am still able to be a good person. I am still me. 

"Why me?" and "why not me?" is two questions that adds up to each other. It it hat it is, it´s up to us to make the best of it.

                   

Do you often wonder "why me?" aswell? Not necessarily cfs, anything.

~ Sarah ~ 

Update from Gran Canaria

I wrote this post on wednesday, but I´ve had some technical problems with both posting and adding pictures, so that´s why I´m publishing it this late. I hope you forgive me, and I also pray you forgive the bad quality of the pictures, I have no idea what happened there... 

Sun and palms

Saturdag afternoon, we arrived at our hotel in Puerto Rico de Gran Canaria ♥ The last part of the trip I was really exhausted, and it was such a relief to finally arrive to our final destination. Saturday it was cloudy, and therefore cold, but as soon as the sun gets to shine, the weather is amazing. The hotel my mother and I are staying at, is very cosy and quiet. That was exactly what we hoped for. Most of the other guests at our hotel are 60-80 years old, but thats okay as they are very calm and quiet. I am really enjoying myself, and I hope that in a couple of days, my shape gets a bit better so I can stay out in the sun longer!

I took this picture now from where im sitting, isn´t beautiful?

~ Sarah ~

Pleasant News

I woke up today, and almost couldn't believe what I saw. It was morning. I slept through the entire night! I feel so awake and ready for a new day. Since this is travel day, and I am excited, I thought id be up all night waiting for morning to come. But I cant even remember laying awake yesterday, I must have fallen asleep pretty darn fast! I am not able to remember when this happened last time, so I had to share my joy with you. Having CFS/ME, many tend to have a hard time sleeping at night, and falling asleep in general. I know this seems really stupid since we have a fatigue syndrome, but that doesnt mean we're not tired, we just have trouble with sleeping. Many mention "insomnia" as a symptom when they explain their illness.

I hope you slept great tonight aswell, and I hope you will get a wonderful day! 

~ Sarah ~

My new baby

I had to show you this. Today, after id seen my psyciatrist, I bought my very own new iPad Air!! I've wanted it for so long, and last night as I was trying to fall asleep, i somehow decided that I should get one. Unlike most times, I really think this was a great decision. I also bought a keyboard, im writing on it now, and i LOVE it. Its like a computer really, but yet so different. 

My darling 

Other than that, Ive prepared for tomorrow today. Time has gone by so fast, and tomorrow, my mom and I are leaving! I know I haven't told you where yet, but we are going to Gran Canaria, Spain. We'll be gone for two weeks, and ill try to keep you posted on how we are doing, since im (of course) bringing my <3 ipad <3. Now im really tired and i am going to sleep, but you'll probably hear from me before we leave (we leave at night), or you can always follow me on twitter: sarahwhining or instagram: sarahwhining

Sleep tight guys.

~ Sarah ~

Better start packing

Surprise, surprise. Friday afternoon, I'm leaving the country. With my amazingly high energylevel, I better start packing today, If i'm going to be ready for friday. 

Where do you think i'm going? Hint: It's warm, sunny and tropical.

~ Sarah ~

My Dream Home

I don't know about you, but I cant wait to move out. Everyday I dream about the perfect house outside of the perfect city. I want a huge house where I can invite friends and family over for dinners and parties. I want the perfect garden with flowers, pools, a tennis court and multiple places to hang out, eat and chat. If it wasn't for the fact that i'm ill and therefore depending on my parents, and of course, the fact that not rich, this would be my home. 

Look at this amazing fasade, i'm in love

Princess foyer, imagine meeting this when you come home from a stressful day at work.

Supercosy livingroom with a fireplace

Luxury livingroom with a piano, could it be more perfect?

I've always wanted a library, filled with good books. My perfect hideaway.

Cosy room you can spend some time in private, reading a book, a magazine or just sitting thinking.

My dream masterbedroom...

... with the most georgeus bathroom attached ...

... and every girls dream, a huge walk-in-closet.

 I would also need at least three guestrooms.

A kitchen every chef dreams of

A cosy diningroom. I could really see myself hosing dinnerparties here. Love the bar.

This adorable room for my twin girls.

Every athletic kids dream. This will be my son's room.

A HUGE basement-garage filled with all the cars my future husband and I have ever dreamed of.

This wonderful indoorpool. This is paradise my friends.

A private tenniscourt in the backyard.

This is perfect. A pool, fireplace, jacuzzi and bar. Spending lazy sundays here would be perfect.

Imagine living here with your handsome, romantic and faithful husband and your angel kids. I better marry a rich man, thats for sure. But hey, there is nothing wrong with dreaming ♥

- What do think about my dream home? Anyone dreaming of a similiar one?

~ Sarah ~